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Sixth One: Boredom, Anger, Dread, Excitement & Depression. |
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Well first off: le boredom.
I have absoluely nothing to do right now. I'm not in the mood to watch any movies that I have and blah. Movies don't sound great right now anyone. I don't really have that many people I could talk to right now. It's Suckfestday Wednesday, so of course El Matthew is at his lame band practice :sigh:
And next: le anger.
My 26 year old step brother is "dating" and sleeping with my seventeen year old best friend. Everyone knew about it but me, apparently, and I am furious. The fact that he's an adult and she isn't at ALL makes me SO frieken upset you can't even know. No one is doing anything about it, either. Tonight after dinner (K (my friend) was there) my step brother (M) and K were frieken cuddling outside. s;lkejra;slkejr;alwk4j3r I feel like someone should be stabbed or hit in the face or something.
And thirdly: le dread.
Starting tomorrow, I have exactly two days to finish packing every single thing in my room up in boxes. I also have to do a load of other things before I leave. Hence, the dread. I'm dreading all the stuff I have to do...I have to close my bank account, go to the post office and have my mailing address changed, I have to call my dad and figure out if he's going to pay for me to ship all my stuff to Texas...and if he isn't...figure out how to convince my mom to let me keep it here (which isn't going to happen. . .). Packing all the crap is the stuff I really really don't want to do. I've put it off for like this entire week.
Next: le excitement.
Speaking of packing, etc. I am really REALLY excited because on Saturday (2 days 2 days!) i am flying to Vegas to be with my grandparents for a week. After that, my aunt & uncle, their five kids, My boyfriend,and my boyfriend's brother are coming to take me back with them to California where I will be (for now) for two months. heart I haven't seen Matt since March 24, so I'm happy happy happy.
Lastly: le depression
Although I'm super SUPER happy to be leaving here, I'm also very depressed. My best friend, Saryn is going to take me to the airport..and her alone. My mom's working, my sister doesn't really care if I'm here or not (all she cares about is whether or not she gets to see our precious ***** step brother), I don't want my step dad there anyway, and my other bestest friend and step brother aren't really welcome there any more either.
Sun Kissed says:
that doesnt seem right
Brittany says:
Yep. But such is a testimony of how loved I am here. lol.
^our conversation on this whole issue. It depresses me that my entire family basically doesn't care at all that I'm leaving, and wont be back for a very long time. A year or so at the least.
And these are my emotions at the present time. Horrahz!
dramallama
Ohh. One last thing. I have (in a fit of boredom) decided that I'll do that whole "create the perfect avi!!" thing that everyone seems to be doing. Mine is my signature. I was going to start with the little fairy wings, but "Ilse" things that I should start on the little dress. Woop.
It's going to take me like 4 years because I don't get on here much, but C'est la vie to that.
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Any help would be extremely appreciated!
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 ynattirb73 · Thu Jun 14, 2007 @ 03:37am · 0 Comments |
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