* overwhelmed knowig he fact that i have 5 test all tomorrow.
* frustrated with people who make my life diffcult by teasing me, talking s**t aboutme behind my back when i have nverharmed them mentally or physically and i will never harm them in future.
* frustrated at myself.
* almost everybody reminded me how much my life sucks or making me feel worthless or remindin me that nothing lasts forever especially having fun.
*even my dad reminded me how much my life sucks. *my B/f told me that so farour relationship is pointless.
all i want 2 do right now is just lay on my bed cry.
i tried looking on brightside but so far there is NO BRIGHTSIDE!
im not making this message for attention nor wanting sympathy. i know tomorrow or friday wont be better. if u wonder why my character is wearing paper bag its becuz i dont want to be seen depressed.
im not making this message for attention nor wanting sympathy. just to let you know if u dont see me online for awhile u will no why.
the main reason im depressed is becuz im afraid my B/F is going to dump me ! i really really love him! its been a new feeling to me since last december of love for someone else besides my family or pet. over the months i not only fell head over heels for him i grown attach to him alot. i dont know if can let all that go from me. ur probably thinking ' whydont u get new B/f if he dumps u?" well i couldnt.....i love him so much and think of him lots on my spare time. im so afraid he is going to dump me. gonk nothing can make me happy .i try to think f something elsebesides my fear but i cant! hes all i think about! im so depressed.
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Cr8zy · Community Member · Thu Oct 14, 2004 @ 04:06am
updated.
im super afraid now. i got on comp today and my b/f wasnt on. he usually is. im not sure if he dumped e or he was just busy.i went on gaia to see if h was online or has atleast been on. he has been online until 2:30pm my time. i got on comp at 3:00pm my time. its now 4:00pm my time and he hasnt got online yet!im so afraid. on the other hand my mom believes
" if ur parnther really loves u , they will come back for you ."
if he dumps me i will so want him back. i willl so do anything that i can to gt back togther with him.except i wont beg.
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Cr8zy · Community Member · Thu Oct 14, 2004 @ 10:08pm
*hugs* xd not sympathy u need a hug!
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plumpfuji · Community Member · Fri Oct 15, 2004 @ 03:48am