Its the very sad truth that wont leave me alone, everyone is only concerned if its about them. Im not sure if I can trust anyone ever again. The hurt doesn't seem to stop no matter how much I pretend Im ok anymore. One more hospital visit one more damned betrayal and I think I'll crack. I have begun to lie constantly to make people think Im ok and it has become a big tangle. I no longer know what to do and everyone is getting in the way. Everyone pushes their problems and expectations on me. Nobody will ever know what has been going on with me, because there is no trust, I can tell you most but no one can know everything, not ever again. It may seem emo but to anyone who cares enough to read this you all lost it, Im done. I cant do it. So you have to just settle for what I decide I can tell you if you really care and love me.
 Celenthia · Wed Jun 06, 2007 @ 03:54am · 0 Comments |
