• So long childhood tho yet I never knew you or really had a childhood being locked up most the time or bounce around here and there never had a chance to have a childhood never had any real friends still don't having taken almost every drug under sun and yet nothing worked because all that time they tried to fix me because they thought I was broken and all those years they tried to take my memories away I hardly have any good ones anyway I've been called everything in the book a loser, a rebel without a cause, a retard,a spaz, people telling me I don't live in the real world well that's because I had a shitty life and tried to escape all the bullshit I've be toss away left in the dark not told what was really is going on even tho I was a adult at the time and yet people are yet still trying to fix me as if I was still broken but I'm telling you now I am broken because of all that you put me through all the horror always being ashamed of me always leaving in the dark has made at home with it being in it I've made a home there if you keep saying I'm broken then I will start to believe you yes I am but its because you kept telling me I was and kept trying to fix something that was not broken at all the thing that was broken was my heart and now you can never go back and fix all those things you did to me I've tried to tell you that I was not broken that I just saw the world in a different way yet you did yet you did not want to understand I guess I will always be broken in your eyes and never be that perfect child you always wanted sometimes you need to walk in someone Else's shoes and take a look at what you really done you pushed me so far and left me in that dark place that I will never be the same tho I die to know you love me I'm all alone