• Crumpled in a lefless heep,
    Face stained black,
    Barley breathing,
    Wishing that the end where closer,
    Knowing that you will suffer so much more befor you can stand back up,
    Knowing that by then you wont want to get up,
    Trying to find the cure,
    To drag yourself to the very edge of the clife,
    Wanting to throw yourself over,
    Knowing that they won't let you,
    Not by yourself,
    They have to, they wnat to,
    They'll push you over just to humilate you,
    Wanting the bigger drama,
    They will do it as he stands there and looks on,
    And even as you are crying, screaming, pleading for help,
    He will stand there like the cold heartless man he is,
    He let you sufer in the begging and he hasn't changed,
    As you wimper and they hold your hands behind your back,
    As you cry and they make you pay,
    As you scream for the end they will deny you of it,
    Refuse the right of passage to where you would be free,
    He'll leave you fopr dead and not feel it,
    That's because he never loved you,
    You where just to stubborn, stupid and blind to see,
    It was a one way conection,
    There for that one had to take the full blast,
    All of the pain and tears,
    You just made yourself belive to give you hope,
    What would he see in you?
    A tall girl who can't take a hint?
    One who could use a work out and is to stupid to relize that?
    The odd one out that just didn't care and paid dearly for it,
    The truth is when you stare at the rflection for a long time,
    You think you see what some people may like,
    We think we are begging to see the true us,
    I call tose moments dilusions,
    A way of liening to our selfs,
    The way to find the truth is simple,
    End it,
    But I am being held back fromn the edge,
    Held back by the same reason I'm there,
    The cruelty, pain, beauty, sence of beloning, and utter dispaer that was caused by the boy I love with all my heart,
    I am his heart and soul,
    He is no ones,
    Least of all mine,
    For who would want to belong to a creature that resembled me,
    I would do anything,
    He dose nothing,
    I would die,
    He would live,
    I will die,
    He will live