• It’s hard to go through life knowing it’s going to end sometime soon. My story is about love, hate, anger, and many other obstacles in life. I’m not trying to make it seem like my life is worse than everyone else’s, I’m not comparing lives to see whose is worse. You have to admit life does get complicated and you do have obstacles to get through as you grow. How this story begins, is when my life started to become harder and harder. I’ve been challenged my whole life, I’ve been pushed, I’ve been hurt, and I’ve been abandoned. As a kid you think it’s always about having fun and getting into trouble, but as you grow you realize it’s only going to get tougher and tougher. When you start to experience the meaning of dating, you have to admit its pretty fun, but when it comes down to it there’s always that one person to ruin it for you, he tells you I love you and that he won’t hurt you, and like an idiot you fall for it. After a few weeks things start to change on you, that “I love you” turns into “I hate you”. And when it comes down to where you don’t know who to trust anymore because of all the abusement and lies he puts on you, you just don’t know what to do anymore. When you look back, you try to remember what happened to make it turn out this way, then you start to remember how much fun it was before this happened, it used to laughing, playing around, leaving to the back room just so you guys could make-out. Now, it’s all just screaming, yelling, crying, and hitting. Next thing you know, he’s cheating on you and that’s when you break, you start to change. When you’re days of getting abused and emotionally hurt are over, you realize you have lost everyone you ever loved because you gave them up for that one guy who treated you like crap. The only people you could go to now is your family, you hope and pray they forgive you and take you back into their lives. You don’t know how scary it is to be left alone, with no one there to help you make the right choices in life. I’m only 15 and I’ve been through this already, it’s not fun, you try talking to someone about your problems and they end up betraying you. As for me, I’m not one of the lucky ones, having a family who doesn’t want you anymore, who don’t care about the decisions you make. Then, that’s when you experience the meaning of drugs and self-abuse, when you’re family doesn’t care your left on your own now. You may think drugs can take away the pain your left with, it really doesn’t it makes it worse. When I would get into a fight with my parents, I would always have that one person to go to who would listen to my problems. But on the month of December, she left us, I was so devastated and hurt and I’ve never felt so alone. When she left, my heart just sank and broke, and the only way to get rid of that pain was with a knife. I would just sit in the corner of my room, the door locked and my IPod playing as loud as it could go. I close my eyes and pretend that she still here with me, I slowly cut my wrist more than 5 times, than I just sit there until I pass out. You can go ahead and say “wow she’s just overreacting and trying to be emo” I don’t care I’ve heard it all already. If people would just realize how horrible life can be to others, and that it’s not always great, then the next thing you know you end up in the hospital, finding out you’re diagnosed with diabetes. Then you try to get an education, kids making fun of you, harassing you, bullying you, and calling you names. I’ve learned to ignore it all, to me nothing hurts me anymore, and nothing could be worse then what I’ve been through already. So you know what I said screw it, I’ve been working harder than ever to get my grades up so I could prove something to myself, I made my own decisions and so far they’ve been great ones. Then I found Jonathan, something about him made me realize not all guys could be so hurtful, he treats me like I’m everything to him; he tells me I love you every day. He tells me how beautiful I am, and how lucky he is to have me, I feel safe and cared for with him. I don’t care about everyone else anymore, my family, and my not trust worthy friends. I’ve always said I’m ready to die, but now I’m not so sure, I may be living on my own but you know it’s helped me a lot. Yes, I still have troubles going on but now that I know I can solve them on my own I have no more worries. So now I’m telling you that don’t worry you’re not alone, there’s so many other people out there possibly going through the same thing you are. And nothing is impossible just remember you’ll have at least one person out there who cares about you.