• you say break but i hear good bye and so when i say good bye you deny the wanting to leave me behind because im just a toy you trail behind no care for the wounds Ive laid bare in side this is to much and i try to hold on but this pain and defilement just goes on and on i don't care about life and im caring less about mine in the end i don't know if i can hold on to you the way that you act so calm and so free as if the worlds daemons are not out for you the innocent take your adult touch you believe every lie you take every trust and i can see the evils abound but to me you don't listen for im just your clown you wont let me go and for that i am damned because of my rictus grip on loves soft sweet hand you hold her aloft as some great ideal as i try to bring us to her bosom to heal we wont be together as you have said and in the end i just don't know if you can see or hear my pain i try to look gay and be happy for you to play all the day with your friends so new all the while i can see in your hand the doll and the pins you so carelessly play for the pins stab its back and my spine wants to crack as i watch you play with a males terrible rage you use me and abuse me and in the pain i forgive to only watch it happen again and again you find a new friend and you give them your garden of delights to taste touch and smell while all the while i lock mine away for no one but you and you tell me how upset you will be if a share so much as you for in this i beg just speak out the truth im only a doll you keep by your side to watch dance on strings you've stolen from inside