• Not knowing where the night ends and the days begin, I feel myself being drawn into a cycle of never-ending torment. Everything has no meaning anymore and nothing is worth living for. I feel like I’m falling into a deep, dark pit of emptiness and I know there is no end to this misery. I want to give up hope of ever being rescued. The one that would be by my side is gone. He swore he’d never leave me, he promised. Oh woe is me, how many times must my pain be the consequence of a broken promise. With every broken promise I die a little. I just want this pain to go away. To be able to crawl out of this pit of emptiness and despair and live again, that is my dream. I want to be able to smile without cause. I want to hear the sound of my laughter that I have lost since the days of my youth. I want to feel whole again. I want to be forgiven of the pain I have inflicted because of my hatred towards myself for not feeling complete. I want to let go of all that is wrong and hold on tightly to what is worth celebrating. As long as I reside in this pit I will never be whole, and until I feel whole I will forever lay at the bottom of this pit and be consumed be pain, despair, agony, loneliness, and all unhappy feelings that wish to take over my life.