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You where my friend through it all, I wouldn’t have gotten through it without you. I needed you, something I swore I would never need, to need someone. Like I need you. You where my light, though the Darkness through the Rain, you got me through it.
Though I felt like I needed you more then anything, I felt like I broke you. I used you to much, I have to turn away now, before I get so lost in you, that it will ruin you forever.
Im alone and helpless through this, Ive lost your light and the Darkness is surounding me. I cant escape it, I cant live through this. I need you now more then ever. I love you, more then the Universe, more then life itself, though I know you will never like me more then a friend, Im alright with that, because I count you as something more, my family. When the Darkness surrounds me, I only think of your name, it’s the only thing that’s keeping me sane, that doesn’t push me over the edge. I need your light now more then ever. When its around me suffocating me. I scream your name!
Ive lost the fight, My Fight, the only thing that I had, you already had every thing else, my soul my heart. My life. The Darkness took it, I have nothing left. They knew exactly where to attack. My Dad. The only real weakness I had, though I never knew he was my Dad tell then, they did. And they took him away, and my only thoughts where to get to you. I needed you in my moment of weakness, I needed you to cry on. Your light which saved me so many times before. I just need to hear you say it will be alright, and then my heart is alright again. Your light healed me yet again.
Im alright because of your light. The Darkness took everything but you. They didn’t know to. For that they lost. They couldn’t take my Light, and with that, I’ll fight back. For my Dad, for my friends, for my life, my heart, my soul, My Fight, and mostly for you, My Light. The only thing that keeps me fighting when I just want to stop, and leave the fighting to someone else. But your there, my Light, something no one can take from me. No one. If they tried Id stop them, because your mine. My Light. You keep me fighting, fighting for the goodness, of humanity, the side Ive barely known, the side, which Ive never seen, for the Darkness kept it from me. But you my light kept me sane to fight, and you know what, because your there, I’ll fight, and I’ll be alright, as long as my Light is there. Alive and well.
Ive tasted blood, your blood, my Light is gone, but your not. I still feel you, your in me, my heart. Even when your dead, your still here, telling me to fight, for the goodness, the innocent, the kindness, of Humanity. I fight for you my Light, My Light, is not gone, you where always with me, two halfs of a whole, soul mates. Destined to never be, but to be family for each other. A girl blinded by Darkness, a boy surrounded by Light. Meeting when the time is right, the boy who saved the Earth, no the Universe, by saving a girl. By taking away the Darkness around her heart, taking it and locking it up withen you. To let your Light destroy it.
Ive never thought about the day you wouldn’t be here, right besides me, guiding me through it. Ive done it all for you, all for my Light, without you, the Earth, the Darkness would have destroyed me. But you came into my life, and took it away, gave me a will to fight, a will to live. Only through you could I take it all. The Darkness, the Insults, the Hatred. Because you where my Light. I took it all, for you, because I love you, you’re my Light, My Universe.
The Darkness has pushed me down, I couldn’t find my Light. They took everything, even you, this time. Killed you right in front of me, brutely. Made me watch. Your Light gave way to the Darkness, I cried because the only thing that could fight the Darkness was now gone, and they could harm me again. The Scars of old refilling as the Darkness surrounded me once again. But this time there is no Light. Your dead and its because of me, all because of me. I killed the only person I ever really loved. The Darkness is overflowing. But there is one part of me, someone, I never could find out who it was. But it whispered to me. ‘Fight for the Light’.
And so I did. I figured it out, you weren’t dead, you where there. My soul mate, my other half. Something not even the Universe could destroy. I got mad, madder then Ive ever been in my life. The Darkness thought it had won. I had another ending to this story of life. They hadn’t destroyed my Light, because no one can destroy Light. It can be clouded but never destroyed. My sins of the past, you helped me rid of, the pain and guilt I felt tell now is nothing compaired to the pain of losing you, My Light. Even when your gone, you still guide me, my Light, always there for me. I love that about you. I got strong through my Rage, through you, my love for the Light, even though Ive never had it. I wasn’t allowing others to get the Darkness, like I have. So Im fighting for you, my beautiful Light, my only Light. I shook off my pain, my guilt, my hurt, the Darkness couldn’t fight me, because your Light was over shining it, over shinning them, through me.
I stood up, and fought the Darkness that surrounded everyone. And your dead body. My own Darkness, with your Light destroyed them all. Ive rewritten the story, they where lost. They took everything from me, I should be weak, they took my Dad, my life, soul, heart, even my Light. Ah but they didn’t take my Light, because my Light will always be with me. No matter what. Im stronger now, more then ever, your strength guiding mine, your soul and mine, destroying the Darkness. The Darkness which has destroyed so many lives, mine and yours, my Light, included. I fought for the Light, for you, for the future. For my life back. I wasn’t going to take the Darkness anymore, you taught me that.
This story of Life, with us, my Light, has been written since before the beginning of time. No before that. Before anything. But the ending was never written, so we are writing it now. As I fight, Im rewriting this story of ours. Making the Heavens, cry, Ive stopped Time, Ive stopped Life, I’ll fight for my Light, and no one will stop me. Im never going to stop until I got you back, back with me, where you belong. My opposite, yet equal. My Light, to the Darkness that surrondeds my hearts. You taught me to bleed, to cry. Now is the time for my debt to be payed.
Im taking the chance to get you back, Im not looking back. Not when it chances you, my Light. Im taking this chance to get you back, before its gone forever. And you may hate me, but I’ll hate myself if I don’t get you back. That’s the truth. I love you My Light.
Im holding on to you my Light, never going to let you go again. Ever, your mine, Ive brought you back, and my Light, Im never letting you go, I love you. You’ll never hear that from my lips, no one will. But I do. More then anyone.
You’re the one who picked me up, and got me back. You’re the one who taught me, life can be happy. That Humanity can be good, can be without the Darkness. The Pain that I was taught was always there. You taught me that. You brought me back, from the brink, from the Edge. And I can never repay you for that. Ever.
You’re the piece that I have been missing, the piece Ive always wanted. Now the fight between Darkness and Light is over I relised that. Your me. And Im you. And we finally finished our Story.
But you want to know something?
“I love you.”
- by Emerald Warrior Jewel |
- Non Fiction
- | Submitted on 06/28/2009 |
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- Title: My Light
- Artist: Emerald Warrior Jewel
- Description: My Light is deticated to a friend of mine who helped me through it. He was my light to help me through it all. I'll never forget him, even if hes gone in body, like in the story, he will never truely leave me. I love him dearly and I hope he gets nothing but the best in the years to come. Well, the story is true, about my struggle with life, and how he just picked me up, and saved me. I love him, and I just wanted to thank him, even though he will never know about my writing this for him.
- Date: 06/28/2009
- Tags: light death rebirth
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Comments (3 Comments)
- Lilibee Arkam - 08/13/2009
- Wow if I see anyone else mentioning Twilight on this website for something that has nothing to do with It I'm gunna kill something. Anyway~ I loved it, great! Your so lucky to have someone like that in your life.
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- _CRookED_dreAmeR_ - 08/04/2009
- that's really beautiful you are so lucky to have someone to lean on even if he's not there in person
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- GhOsT_kiLa916 - 07/15/2009
- kind of reminds me of the second book in twilight
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