• ~vampire thoughts~

    why me?why must i ache for blood.i feel like a monster. i should be locked away, yet i stay.the smell,the touch,the blood. it's adicting. i can't stay away from it, and the dreams don't help. i dream of this girl. her brown hair, her sea blue eyes. i see her in my dreams. shes beautiful. i would die for her, except for the fact that i'm already dead. i walk into town. not expecting anyone to see me or notice me, after all, i have been 'dead' for about twenty years. when all of a sudden, i see the girl. she called my name. she knew me. she smiled at me, and then i realised that she was waving and smiling at the uy behind me. he had the same name as me. how unusual, but then i saw his parents. it wws my sisters son. she named him after me. should've known. the girl was odd though, she turned around and then looked at me. her head tilited, and her eyes widened.
    " uh? do i know you?" she asked.
    i jus ignored her and then a week later, i ran into her. we talked, and talked some more. she then disappeared. no one knew where she was. when i found her, she was dead on the side of the road. go figure. the one girl that i actually start to care about, without falling under the temptation, dies. i found the guy that killed her. he turned up dead in about a minute. i left the town, and weird thing happened. i saw her again, but her name was different, and she was in another town. a whole different family. new friends. ther was more then one of her. how. i taalked to her. got to know her. we went out, as in bf anf gf, for about two months, and then i told her what i was. she got scarred, and killed herself. i can't love anyone else. after two girls, i'm dead. the pain, it hurts. i roam around the earth. falling into temptation. without a care in the world. if only i would have waited another month, jus maybe, she would have listened to the whole thing, before she killed herself.