• We stood there for about 5 minutes staring at eachother. It was only a matter of time before someone talked. I wasn’t going to talk no matter what. Jake stood there at the door staring at me and Joseph. He closed his eyes. He frowned. His face looked so hurt I swear it broke my heart. It tore it to the max.
    Jake looked at me and shook his head left to right while his face showed betrayal. Then he looked at Joseph. And he left me. I couldn’t believe what was happening, I couldn’t. I heard Jakes foot steps leave. But my mind couldn’t process something like this. I knew I should be crying right now. But I felt numb, and I felt like I couldn’t think. Joseph stared at me worried. I didn’t know what to do. I sat there for half an hour. Then it all processed through. I started crying. Crying like crazy. I couldn’t breath! My heart was beatingso quickly. I felt like if someone had just ran over me.
    “JOSEPH!” I screamed crying. I had broken Josephs heart so many times, and now I broke Jake.
    “What type of monster am i!” I whimper escaped through my lips. I curled myself in a ball (the covers still over me) and cried so much.
    Joseph put his arm on me.
    “DON’T TOUCH ME!” I screamed at him, tears running down my face.
    “DON’T EVER TALK TO ME! YOU RUINED EVERYTHING! DON’T TALK TO ME, DON’T LOOK AT ME, DON’T GET ANYWEAR NEAR ME! IF YOU HAVE ANY DECENCY LEFT THROUGH YOU, YOU WOULD LEAVE RIGHT NOW! LEAVE AND NEVER COME BACK!” I was shouting so loud with my voice sounding weak from the tears.
    Josephs face looked like he was about to cry too. I suddenly became more aware. He walked out of the room speachless.
    I was here by myself. On my own.
    My nose was stuffy and my eyes were filled with tears but what did I care!?.
    Since I was by myself I was going to talk to myself.
    “WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!”
    “I KISSED JOSEPH!”
    “I JUST RUINED MY RELATIONSHIP WITH JAKE!”
    “AND I JUST KICKED JOSEPH OUT, THE TWO MOST IMPORTANT PEOPLE JUST LEFT MY LIFE!”
    I started sobbing. The officers came in and saw me crying. So they just stood there. I was crying for about an hour and a half.
    “Hunny, we uh, brough you some clothes.”
    The officer put the clothes ontop of the bed and walked out and left me.
    “SCREW CLOTHES!”
    “CLOTHES WAS WHAT RUINED EVERYTHING!”
    “IF IT WASN’T FOR THE RAPEST I WOULD HAVE NOT DIED OF SCARDNESS, I WOULDN’T HAVE KISSSED JOSEPH, AND I PROB WOULDN’T HAVE BROKE JAKES HEART!”
    “I SWEAR TO GOD WHEN I FIND THAT MAN—“ then I broke out crying again for another half hour.
    When I finished crying I was tipsy. I couldn’t stand streight. I managed putting on my cloths.
    When I got out of the place officers just started at me not saying anything.
    They just stared. Like I gave a ******** anymore. My world collapsed. And I felt like I was falling down so deep into depression it was insane. To many things happened in one day. I lost my boyfriend, best friend, and got rape. Today is SERIOUSLY not my day. I wanted to cry my heart out. I hated life.
    I ran to the car and put the key in ignition. The cops were calling me back, but someone told them to let me go. I didn’t see who, my eyes were too filled with water. I pulled baack the car, and drove away as quickly as possible. The moment I made it home I barjed through the door and ran to my room. The moment I found my bed I fell on it. I didn’t have much strength left in me. My head was on my pillow. The tears streaming out non stop. Whenever I lost someone, it was usually either Jake or Joseph to comfort me. This time, I had no one. The weight in my chest was so unbearable I couldn’t take it. I heard the door open and close. But no one talked downstairs. My mom didn’t even call me up for dinner. I guess they were smart enough to know that this wasn’t the time for anything. I curled up in a ball, pulled the sheets up to my face and sobbed. It was as if I had nothing left in me. I cried myself to sleep.
    That was the night that id always remmember. Forever.
    I woke up next morning and it was 10:00 am.
    My parents hadnt woken me up, I guess today I could skip school. Just in case I got out of my bed and opened my parents room. They were talking. But when I came in they stopped and stared at me wordlessly.
    I looked to the floor. I wasn’t going to see the expression they had on there faces.
    “Am I going to school today?”
    “No” my dad answered.
    I dragged my fluffy slippers backk to my room and plopped on my bed.
    ‘Wonderful’ I thought to myself. ‘Now I can spend a whole day thinking bout how Jake probably broke up with me and how I just lost Joseph.’ ‘Absoltutely wonderful.’ I thought sarcastically.
    I stayed in bed the whole day. I felt like as if I didn’t have a purpose in life. What was the point in living when the whole time you were alive, you were being totured or hurt.
    Didn’t make any sense.
    I heard my phone ring. I ignored it.
    I closed my eyes and layed my head back on my pillow.
    I heard the phone again. I ignored it. Heard it 5 times until I finally opened my eyes, got to my desk, grabbed the phone, and plopped onto my bed again.
    Jake I hoped in my head. Please let it be Jake. I opened the phone and first thing I saw was a txt message from Joseph. I sighed.
    ‘Hey’ the txt said.
    ‘I don’t know what to tell you.’
    ‘Sorry isnt goanna work, I know it.’
    ‘But if Sorry doesn’t work, then what do I do?”
    ‘I couldn’t sleep all night, I knew I had just broken your relationship with Jake. Trust me I know. You were only trying to make me feel better. Help me forgive myself. But it was still my fault.
    ‘im in school. Jakes not talking to me. Im not talking to him’
    I started txting him back.
    ‘I don’t want to talk to anyone. Bye’
    I closed the phone. I ignored the ring again and again. But it was up to the point wear he woulda txted me 15 things. I sighed frustrated. I opened the phone to see what he had written.
    ‘I know’
    ‘Im sorry’
    ‘im sorry’
    ‘im sorry’
    ‘im so terribly sorry’
    ‘im sorry I ruined everything’
    ‘im sorry I hurt you’
    ‘im sorry I made you cry’
    ‘im sorry ‘
    ‘Im sorry im a bad guy’
    ‘Im sorry im not good enough for you’
    ‘Im so, so, sorry.’
    I typed back.
    “Watever bye.”
    He didn’t type back. I was glad. I didn’t want to hear any more from him.
    At 3:00 pm. I got another txt.
    I opened my cell.
    A text from Jake.
    I held my breath.
    ‘Uh-how are you doing?’ he wrote.
    “Cut this crappy stuff. Tell me what you want to tell me so I can go back and feel like s**t bout myself.” I wrote grudingly.
    He didn’t write back till 10 or 15 min later.
    ‘Im not leaving you’ he wrote.
    ‘what the heck do u mean??!’ I wrote.
    ‘ I mean im not braking up with you.’
    ‘what! What the hell Jake! I just kissed Joseph while I was practically naked except for my underwear and you don’t care!?’
    It took him half an hour to respond. He was trying to think of an answer.
    ‘Joseph was stupid enough to dump you because you loved me. I know, I know theres a part of you that likes him, but, I cant leave you. I cant. Even though I was deeply dissapointed you still had feelings for him, I cant stand to think of not seeing you again.”
    ‘Jake what the hell is wrong with you! I practically cheated on you! You should be throwin a hissy fit. Or telling me your pissed or something!’
    ‘Do you want me to break up with you?” He wrote back.
    “No- Yes- uh…I don’t know.”
    ‘I had the worst night yesterday. I felt like everything was crashind down on me. Like I couldn’t breath. Like there werent enough tears in me to show how sad I felt. This morning I woke up. I thought bout you Jess. But, as much as you hurt me, I just cant lose you... not now, not ever. “
    ‘Jake no. I practically made out with my best friend! And I don’t get any consequences? None at all? Not one?! Zero! That makes no sense please.’
    ‘What do you want me to say Jess?
    “I don’t know but something that I deserve!’
    “Well I have just the idea. You cant invite Joseph over, or talk to Joseph ever alone without me being there.”
    ‘what!?’
    “You wanted a punishment, you got it.’
    ‘Why though?!” I wrote back.
    ‘Cuz if I was there when he was making out with you I woulda stopped it. And if im there, theres no chance that he can do any slick or sly moves. Its only fair.”
    ‘ugh’
    ‘Will you do it. For me?’
    ‘maybe…maybe not.’
    ‘Don’t you think you’ve put me through enough pain?’
    I thought about it and sighed. Ugh. This sucks.
    ‘I guess’
    ‘So wiill you?’
    Dammit, I only did it cuz I knew I deserved a punishment. ‘ugh fine.
    I heard the doorbell ring. That was strange.
    ‘I gotta go ill talk to you later.’
    ‘Bye’
    ‘bye’
    I closed my phone and put it in the back jeans of my pocket. It was poring outside.
    I put on some decent closed. I put my hair in a sloppy pony tail, put on some sandals. And walked quickly to the door. Ugh. This better be important.
    I opened the door.
    I took a step back with disbelief.
    Joseph stood there. In a black and white tuxedo. Drenched. A bunch of roses in his hands wilted and soggy. His shoes with water too. He smiled and said,
    “Im sorry”
    I closed my eyes. Took a deep breath. He frowned when I opened my eyes.
    I opened my mouth but nothing came out of it. It mustve looked stupid.
    Then I said, “ Ill go get you a towel.”
    I ran upstairs got the first towel I saw and ran back. He was wetting the floor. I covered him with the towel. I got like 5 towels to dry him up.
    He covered himself quickly with the towels. He sat on the floor so he wouldn’t get the couch dirty.
    I saw him shivering and wrapped the towels around him.
    When I finally sat down. He looked at me, I looked at him.
    “What are you doing here?”
    He got up and took a few steps toward me.
    “Im here to apologize.” He grabbed both my hands.
    “I accept. It wasn’t your fault, temptation got the best of me.” We both smiled weakly and then stayed quiet. I got up suddenly and ran to the kitchen. I came back with hot chocolate and handed it to him.
    He smiled, “Thank you”
    He sipped it slowly. He let out a sigh. When he was done his mouth had some chocolate on it and he wiped it off with his tongue.
    “Joseph”
    I looked at him.
    “Ya?”
    “Jakes not letting me see you unless hes there at all times.”
    “Woah, wait what?” his eyes furrowed and he was confused.
    “Ya. My punishment.” I lowered my head like a small girl being repremended for doing something wrong.
    “Figures” He said.
    “Joseph you should go, its been a VERY long day for me. I just want to go to sleep.”
    “Ya, sorry for coming out of nowear my fault.”
    “Ugh stop apologizing me your annoying the hell out of me.” I said.
    “Ya well I guess ill see you--- at school?”
    “Ya.”
    “Oh and don’t forget these.” He handed me the wilted roses and I smiled.
    “Apology accepted, the hard part is now going to deal with Jake.” I frowned.
    “Well-“ he said hesitantly. “If you need my help just tell me, I owe you big time.”
    I smiled and grabbed his arm and towed him out.
    “Thanks Joseph.”
    “Anytime.”
    He gave me a hug, though by the way he hugged me I saw he wasn’t to comfortable with it. But then he turned around and walked to his car. I closed the door and sat on the couch.
    I layed my head down restlessly. I was so tired.
    Before I knew it I fell asleep into unconciousness on the couch.