• Sometimes the hardest thing in the world is to say no. Sometimes it's hard to please. Especially if the person you want everything for wants so much. He told me to jump, I did exactly that, he told me to walk and I asked how far. He told me I was no longer what he wanted so I said goodbye. He called me back to him, and I came running. I learned a lot of myself from him, and yet I still know nothing at all. He was Simon i was what came after the says. Dependent and scared is all that can really describe me. I wanted it all for him, but nothing for myself. In the end he destroyed me and I him. He knew in the depths of his mind that without me he had nothing. I knew in the crevices of my heart that I could walk away. I didn't though and not saying no led to my unhappiness. Doing what ever he asked led me up the street. Wanting everything for him and nothing for myself led to an addiction very uncontrollable. I die he dies, he dies I die. It could have been I live he lives, he lives I live, I die he dies, and He dies I live. But I did not see it the right way. Like looking through a kaleidoscope. So i lay in the graveyard, my life unfinished but scared to find out where my soul must go. He screams to me from the depths of hell, telling me to come. I try to go to him still.