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The school bell rang to end the day. "Finally!" I said out loud, running from the building. I was going to tell my friend, Aaron, how I... how much I loved him. I turned around the corner to where my friends always hung out at, and there I saw in the middle of the group, Aaron, holding my best friend Claire in his arms. I stood there, shocked, and screamed, "CLAIRE! I thought I could trust you again! You know how much this meant to me! Now what are you? A back-stabbing traitor?!" They both looked at me and Aaron said," Vanessa! It's not wh-" I ran off towards home before he could finish, sobbing the whole way there. When I got inside, all I did was shove my pocket knife into my purse before running out again, heading towards the Mall. When I finally got to the Mall, I stopped running at where I usually hung out with my friends after school, and sat down, crying again. I set my purse down on the floor next to me and opened it, putting my hand in and leaving it on the knife. I pulled my knees up to my chest, and the knees of my jeans started getting soaked with tears.
Someone tapped on my shoulder, and when I looked up, it was Aaron. "Leave me alone. Go and make out with Claire. Why are you even here?" I asked, not really even wanting to talk. Aaron sat down next to me and said, "Vanessa, I was looking for you. I know there's a knife in your bag. Put it in the garbage can. Now." I looked over at him and said, "No! You know why I have it in the first place! Just let me do what I've been planning for the last year. It's not like anyone will miss me, not even you." He sighed and said, "Vanessa, you know your parents will miss you. All of your friends, your sister...." He trailed off, not knowing what to say. I took the advantage of his silence and said, "Yeah, except I know you won't miss me. No one really loves me. My parents talk about me behind my back, my friends are all backstabbing bitches... Especially Claire." I took out my knife then, and flipped the blade out. I didn't even wait for his response before I brought the blade to my throat, putting just a little pressure on it. I felt blood dripping down my neck, and my vision started going black. "One cut for my parents..." I cut in another place this time. "Two cuts for my friends..." And finally, I brought the knife right up against my jugular vein. "And three cuts for you. I love you Aaron" I finally said. I thought I had cut myself, because my vision completely blurred out, but for some reason, I still felt... alive. My head and throat hurt like hell, but I didn't feel completely dead.
I woke up in a hospital bed. I had several tubes in my skin and even more monitors around me. My parents were sitting by my bed, asleep, and Aaron was standing next to me, holding my hand, and humming. It sounded like he was humming the tune of Shadow of the Day (Linkin Park), and it looked like he was crying, but I wasn't sure. I squeezed on his hand with the slightest bit of pressure, and he suddenly stopped humming, and he looked over at me. "Oh, thank god. I thought you wouldn't make it" he said, and he bent over and kissed me on the lips. I could hear the beeping on my heart monitor getting faster and faster, and when he kissed me, I flat-lined. I could hardly say anything, I just stuttered out, "Wha.. what h-h-happ-pened t-to m-me?" I had completely forgotten everything that happened, like i had amnesia or something. He sighed and said, "You had tried to kill yourself. When you were about to make the last cut, I kind of.... knocked you out. I was kind of frozen for a couple of seconds, before I called for help. You had said you loved me.... I... I didn't know what to do except to stop you." I sighed and said, "Ok-k... I think I'm going to go back to sleep but.... before I do, I was just wondering... Why were you holding Claire like that the day I... tried to kill myself?" Aaron smiled and said, "Oh, that? That was... well.... She had told me about your... plans... and she started crying. I just hugged her and tried to comfort her....." After I heard that, everything fit together like the easiest puzzle in the world. I smiled as Aaron kissed me again, and then, I fell asleep.
- by IINeko_AmatsuII |
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- | Submitted on 03/22/2009 |
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- Title: Ending It All - Vanessa
- Artist: IINeko_AmatsuII
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Just Trying To Get Into The Head OF The Main Character Of The New Story
I'm Trying To Write.
Vanessa is just a normal 15 year old girl, right? Well, when teenage depression hits her, she goes a little overboard. She caring friends like Aaron, and he knows exactly how she feels, but she still goes kinda nuts. She ends up cutting herself up.... YAY EMONESS! - Date: 03/22/2009
- Tags: ending suicide death dying love
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